on my mind

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for the first time since returning to school 

and beginning my adventure as a montessori teacher,

i have come to question myself.

to question my abilities.

to question my patience.

to question how likely it is that i will be able to teach these children.

how can i teach them the importance of trust and honesty?

integrity; helping and service to others; patience.

potty training,

ABC's, 

how to clean up after spilling water - 

those i can handle.

it is the deeper lessons;

those i fear. 

if i feel this lost and overwhelmed,

how can i possibly help them?

upon observing me this week,

a parent asked a fellow teacher if i was ready?

if i was doing okay?

how were my stress levels?

it hurt.

while i can confidently say i strive to do my best,

it seems my best just isn't quite up to par.

it's a lot to juggle right now.

just thought i would share what is on my mind right now.

my state of mind may or may not be altered by 

a pancake-induced food coma. 

the best kind of food comas if you ask me!

xoxo.